Minority of Minorities

Being a minority, can create a feeling of hopelessness
When a situation arises, that your brother is beat down
You choose to grab a bat
Mood’s set to a ghost town

Violence with violence
Fire with fire
Take another mans life
Burns with selfish desire

For example
How will you come out a circle
That a woman is no longer seen on the side
To demand rights
But won’t let down her pride
Expecting order
Without a clear mind

That terror is not associated with faith
By abusing other religions
So they do not feel safe

If one black man do you wrong
Hurting his family
Does not make you strong

But hold on…

If one white man do you wrong
Hurting his family
Also does not make you strong

Unrecognizing the struggles of others
Immigrants who abuse the cover
Expect benefits and equal rights
Choose not to work, to do what should be right
Gives no opportunity to others who work hard
For that, stripped from their green card

So how do we unite for the rights?

Disregarding the minority within minority

Recognizing people struggle the same
From different race, gender
Lgbt, disability
And age

Major and minor keys both have a place
On the black and white keys of a piano’s showcase

Like music, peaceful or strong through the notes
Stand up for your rights through powerful quotes

White Influence

Entitlement seems to be an unused word

In a Caucasian man’s world

And what is even more absurd

Is that is not unheard

For them to kill nations of mockingbirds.

 

That doesn’t make every Caucasian wrong

They can be enlightened, belong

Below the egotistical clouds where they become strong

Among the colored people’s continuous song

March together with the oppressed to get along

 

Create unison within the people whose voice is being held

Culture appropriation

Admitting to discrimination

Are thoughts thats should not be expelled

 

Don’t let history repeat

Put your hand on your heartbeat

 

Feel compassion for the people with no seat

Reach out

Lift yourself up to

Together preach

 

Sisters and brothers, black, brown, yellow hands out

If white man’s grasp is tight

Loyalty to equality is devout.

The Mission

Loneliness for me does not appear from lack of people in my life

Or believing no man wants me to be their wife

It rumbles deeper in the pits of passion in my soul

Thirst for salvation

Hunger for redemption

The unapologetic reason for my being to be whole.

Clasping knowledge out of my reach

Gaining the remarkable power of speech

To get up, stand up for something bigger than me

A prisoner of mind, it is the pathway to be free

By devoting myself to find world peace

Married to the earth, the people, honoring the deceased.

Enlightenment in my Early 20’s – Health

The first topic I will start on will be health. Yes, health seems like a huge topic, and you can split it into Physical and Mental health. However, as someone who focused on mental health only throughout her teenage years and saw no improvement, mental health will be an overcast for all topics discussed but I will focus on physical health.

When you are living with parents, their main concern is you getting fed. Even if it is not specifically healthy. If you are going to ask for money, you know the one thing that they will fund is you’re not starving.

But when you start to become independent it becomes a costly thing. And also a huge sign of laziness. It is so much easier to get take out and cheaper to eat out at restaurants than to cook for yourself at home at times.

However, I realised how huge it is to maintain a good diet. To eat at minimum 3 meals a day with breakfast at the biggest. To consume a lot of water and to cut out certain foods in your diet. For me, I hardly eat dairy now which has cleared my skin and my occuring stomach problems. I also only eat brown bread, rice and pasta if available. Hardly any sugars and sodas. Meats are just chicken or fish. These little changes made a huge difference.

A website to refer to would be thepaleodiet.com which mimics diets of our hunter-gatherer ancestors. Cutting out all that nastiness of high rising obesity and diseases in modern day society.

You also have to be careful of chemicals put in restaurant foods and also genetically engineered foods or foods with pesticides. Also, with the amount of plastic being dumped a lot of our food has consumed the toxins within that too. I’ll be honest, it is hard to eat really healthy. But is is a CONSCIOUS decision and a time out you need to make to do your own research. Prepping meals is also a good way to not throw away food and if you have a busy schedule.

Another problem for us is also sitting. We sit mostly all the time: in our bed in the morning, in the car to wherever we have to go, in the seat in our classroom or office etc. Make time for exercise, try to walk everywhere, buy a bike. Get a gym membership and go once a day or find a nice running path. The hardest thing is motivation though right?

If you are fortunate enough to find an exercise buddy that is great. But you cannot always rely on that person being as motivated as you. We usually give up because the other person does. So it is all up to you to push yourself. What I find is that making a plan to write down how long you will spend on that machine or doing what exercise, how many reps, what exact exercises before you go to the gym give you a higher chance of being more productive. So give it a try along with the healthy diet and trust me your whole world will change. A habit takes 3 weeks to kick in so don’t give up and set yourself a month challenge.

Another thing is to join sport clubs, activities that also keep you up and going and invite socialization. We feel that it is too late to be really good at a sport but that is untrue. Yes, maybe at a professional level, but you can still excel to a point where you can either compete and build up your health. If it is a team sport it also helps with socialization if you struggle in that sector (linking to mental health).

Overall, a good diet and exercise has lifted so many of my depressive moods. There is a huge relationship between physical and mental and sometimes, you know, you just gotta get out there! That is why I highly recommend focusing on physical health as a step to improving your mental one.

Enlightenment in my Early 20’s – Intro

One thing I have been known for, if you have talked to me one to one, is advice. And if you follow me, you also probably recognized I have not been making youtube videos or blogging recently.

This is because I am 20, and I still do not know what the hell I want to do. And I have talked to my 30 year old friends, 40 year old, 50 year old and even grandparents who still say the same thing.

However, 20 is a special age. You are no longer a teenager and you are starting the journey to independence and adulthood. Figuring out how to achieve that is the ultimate goal, and something that might be ongoing for many years.

So, as a 20 year old, I have decided to write a few blog posts on my experiences on topics that I think every 20 year should start thinking about to start a journey of self exploration.

Loving yourself

Loving yourself

Is allowing the roots to grow strong
Sturdy into the soil
Feeding yourself the nutrients
The passion that flows through the veins
Making your blood boil

It’s reaching for the sky
Letting in the sunlight
Not being afraid to stretch out
Embracing when darkness arrives
But keeping your goals in sight

It’s flowering
Attracting good vibes
Blossoming and booming
Creating colours and aroumas
Entwining with other lives

Loving yourself is remembering
You are part of nature
As the sun rises and sets
Those daylight hours are not the only ways
To see the beauty ahead

When the darkeness creeps in
A whole world comes alive
Accepting the yin and yang
The cycle of good and bed
Learning no matter the condition

You can thrive
You can adapt
You can merge victorious

You are part of a world
That when conserved
Is glorious

So treasure yourself
Take care
Conserve your soul and body

Water yourself
Feed yourself
Help yourself grow

No matter the bends
Twists
Obstacles in your way

Just like a tree
From bottom to top
All life’s joys and worrries
Will be written to show
Your beautiful story.

First Love Poem

I have never written a love poem 

But for you, I will give it a shot

Damn, I feel so cheesy and corny

I could do something

Perhaps write something horny

However, that won’t do

So I’ll start off by telling you

How much I love you

How our minds have entwined from two

Into one that’s so intune

With the world’s rhythms and blues

The auras that were blank but now grew

To create a splashed canvas that stands up tall

In a gallery, appreciated by all

As they gaze at the beauty and the flaws

The exposure is so damn raw

Eyes on us, staring at our core

How its common purpose opens a door

To limitless opportunities from here and beyond

Hand in hand, a timeless song

I never thought I could ever be so fond

Of another soul, my indescribable bond

The temptation has never ever felt wrong

To create an adventure that is forever long

With no ending, I am never alone

Knowing my partner in crime is just a phone

Away from being able to roam

With me to fight the demons that possess

This world, making the people obsessed

With the material things in life

Ignorance cuts deep and slashes with a knife

The aching world that’s dying to change

With you, I believe that we can take the pain

To look past all the money and fame

And create the happiness and peace

Spread our one soul and seize 

The opportunity to be able to release

The fighter within who is willing to stand tall

Together, our minds will never be able to fall

Into the existing superficial bubble

We can pop with absolutely no trouble

Don’t be afraid to move forward on our course

Because together, we are an unstoppable force.

Fake Friends

Swing around and turn your back

Next moment you know

Smack

Right bang in the face

You may think that’s a disgrace

But worse yet

Is that person who laid hands on you

Is now your biggest regret

 

A friend

Get your leg stuck in the mud

Reach out and brings you out

However

It’s now all about spilling more bad blood

 

So messed up

How your caught by the hook

And your bro helps you out

Only to be shook

By the fact he was the one holding the rod

And preaches by god

With the rod still in his hands

That he would never do such thing

Confront him and he will still dance with his sins

 

It’s all bullshit

Caught up all in these lies

A never ending maze

With the repeating surprise

 

No ones going to try

To change for you

To be a better person for you

Make any of your dreams come true

 

So you got to do what’s best for you.

The right people will follow

Down your path to success

Right from the start

 

Even if there are a few fall aparts

 

And when you get to the top

Best believe

The look on betrayers faces when they try to achieve

Through your breakthrough

Will be crushed

By the fact that they were never your friends

So the VIP table and the champagne in your hand

Symbolizes the obvious end

Ends never meet

 

If they should have

Then that friendship would have been concrete

Instead of a forever shaping sand storm

No permanent form

 

Why settle for a second hand truck

When you can have a Porsche driven up to your front door.

 

Therefore

Be careful with the people who are kicking with you

Not kicking behind you

Or anywhere else without you.

Or that will be your flaw

Trusting people who will never give you any more.

혼혈의 문제들 (Mixed-race problems)

안녕 여러분… 나는 한국어를 잘 할 수 없는데 너무 힘들어요. 하지만 서울에서 6년동안 살았어요. 옛날에 런던 태어났고 내 영국조부모님들이 인종 차별했어요. 그래서 우리 엄마가 내가 한국어를 가르쳐 주면 나는 영어가 능숙하지 않다고 생각했어요. 너무 걱정하고 한국말을 못했어요…

2011년에서 이사하고 국제고등학교 다녔어요. 그런데 난 한국사람이니까 그 학교에서 교포들이 한국어 잘하고 난 배제되었다고 느꼈어요. 한국과 영국에서 정체성 문제를 겪었어요. 한국수업 했는데 학생과 선생님은 항상 더 많은 한국어를 모르는 것에 대해 나를 비판했어요.

요즘에 서울에서 외국인들 나를 외국인으로 대우하고 한국친구 사귀싶으면 한국말 잘 할수없는데 힘들어요. 하지만 난 한국사람이니까 한국인으로 대우하고싶어요. 하지만 창피해서 그냥 혼자서 공부해요.

혼혈 친구있으면 혼혈이라면 더깥은 문제가 있어요?

말해주세요~

(미안해요…한국말 힘들어요. 나를 이해할 수 있기를 희망해요.^^)